Last P-day in MTC 4-15-16

CAN YOU BELIEVE ILL BE IN NZ THIS WEEK!!!! This week has been a roller coaster... It started off saying goodbye to all of my district other than my companions... I miss them so much. It is crazy how close I got to people in 3 weeks. I made friendships that will last forever!!! Mom and Dad, you two will understand this more than the rest, but please explain to them!! I was getting ready for bed the other night and I was talking to Sister Dehart, I could just tell she seemed a little off, and she opened up to me all about her family. She comes from such a broken home full of drugs, multiple gay siblings and really sad stuff. As President Rempp told me I would, I was able to testify of the love of my family. I was able to give her hugs and talk with her about her life doesn't have to be like that after her mission. I was truly able to help her and I felt so grateful. I am so grateful and for ever in debt to my savior for the family that I have!!!  I sent mom and dad my flight schedule, so josh get that from them:) i leave the provo MTC at 10:30 I believe and I know i am supposed to go right back to check in as I get there, so if you'll get there a little early and wait for me that would be best so that I for sure see you:) I had a really special tender mercy happen this week as I started Visitors Center Training. I hated the class at first. I felt like I was a dumb missionary who could only use the internet to teach and who gave tours. I was really bitter to my Savior. All we learned was giving tours and teaching online and answering questions. Our first chat came up and it was from a boy. He asked us about polygamy and shortly started changing to Joseph Smith and The Book of Mormon and was just being really rude to us and extremely vulgar. I just wanted to go back to my room and cry. I felt useless, like why would I teach like this if I felt confident teaching to people and I was better at it. I prayed so hard that I would understand why I was called to this mission. As I sat there, another chat came in and it said "Missionaries?" I replied and it was a girl named Chloe, and all she said was "I think you are awesome" WOW. What a tender mercy from the Lord. I am still not sure why I am called to do this, but I do know that my patriarchal blessing talks about spreading the gospel throughout all the world, and with online teaching we are fulfilling the promise that the gospel will reach every nation. We are able to teach anywhere in the whole world. I was able to call and talk with people that had requested free bibles and I then offered them a free Book of Mormon and a Missionary Visit and 8 or 9 people accepted. I know that Jesus Christ knows me. I have been frustrated with it this week, but I know he knows and loves me. Tomorrow we get to go to temple square and become companions with a Sister there and begin giving tours as if we were really missionaries there. I am excited to go to the real world. We ride the trax there and I am excited to see people other than missionaries!! I WILL BE IN NZ NEXT PDAY!!! I cannot believe it!! I seem to have a long layover so I will try to reach you all!! If you get a random number on the 18 you better answer!!! I'll be on here for quite a bit so please write me back. I love you all, so much. I miss you so much and not positive if I'm ready to hear your voices yet!! I love you guys, thank you for the prayers, I feel them so much!!!

"Begin with the end in mind."

Love, Sister Madeline DeLoach